I asked myself this question this morning and I was shocked by the answer. No….I was not truly humbled.
I thought I was based on how far I’ve reached in my self development but allow me to explain why I came to this conclusion. This morning I started writing a letter to myself and it took me in a direction I honestly did not expect. The excerpt below was taken from my diary.
It’s been awhile since I’ve written to you but here I am at yet another snag in my journey. Yes I’ve reached so far in my self-development but I still feel as though I’m struggling with doubts, fears and uncertainties.
I’ve been carrying around a somewhat proud & haughty attitude that I am so self-developed and noticed how far off others were from myself. When I saw the attitudes of others I will gawk and fill myself with such self flattery for being me and not them.
It’s like apart of me started to feel I was better than others for being the way that I am. It’s so ironic that the more I felt that way, a part of me still battled with insecurities that no amount of self pep talk could quell.
So starting from now I’ve made a decision to go through yet another change in my journey towards becoming a better person and that change will be to strip myself completely of my old personality and clothe myself with a new one.
This new personality of mines will incorporate a very important quality which is Humility. So out with the old me and in the with the new.
Guys I was shocked after that out-pour. It’ s like I had those feelings inside me and suddenly it just came out and I realized that throughout my journey of self development the attitude of humility was not apart of my journey also.
The definition of being humble according to google means “having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s importance, to feel less important or proud”
After reading that definition I could say with full certainty that I was not a humbled individual. I walked around with an airy sense of pride and felt like nothing or no one could take that away from me because I’ve been through so much to get to where I’m at, I deserve to be this way.
My prideful attitude started to eat away my inner sense of peace and I needed to do something about that. With the newfound knowledge of acknowledging I need to work on cultivating the quality of humility within me I immediately took action.
1st Step, Forgiveness. ” I forgive you Josanne for being the way you were. You cannot change your past but you can start working right now to change your future.”
2nd Step, Acknowledge the true meaning of Humility with the use of an example. The best example I could relate to is the one and only Jesus Christ who was humble enough to wash his disciples feet.
Now that I have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. I have set an example that you should do as I have done for you. Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him.
3rd Step, Start right here, right now. ” Today I have become more humbled.”
So guys those are the steps I took to cultivate the quality of humility. Feel free to ask yourself that same question, be truly honest with yourself and start right now to take the necessary steps towards becoming truly humble.